June 30, 2009

OMG! In my own back yard!

Seven arrested in Texas gay bar ‘raid’
Men charged with ‘public intoxication’ on Stonewall’s 40th anniversary

Seven customers were arrested for public intoxication at a Fort Worth, Texas, gay bar shortly after midnight Sunday.

Angry gay activists said the incident mimicked the famous police raid on the Stonewall Inn gay bar in New York’s Greenwich Village exactly 40 years earlier.

Fort Worth police released a statement saying they conducted a routine “alcohol beverage code inspection,” not a raid, at the Rainbow Lounge, a gay club that opened for business less than a month ago.

But at least three customers present during the appearance by police officers and Texas liquor commission agents told a CBS-affiliated TV news station that the officers and agents acted in an aggressive and rude manor toward the customers and began singling out people for arrest on public intoxication charges.

The police statement says at least two customers made “sexually explicit movements” toward two officers and a third customer grabbed the groin of an agent with the Texas Alcoholic Beverage Commission as the officers and agent walked through the club. The three customers were charged with public intoxication, as were four other customers who also were observed to be intoxicated, the police statement says.

“I can guarantee there wasn’t a man in this bar that would’ve touched one of those officers, knowing they were arresting people,” bar patron Chuck Potter told CBS 11 News.

“I’ve worked in gay bars in four different counties in Texas,” Rainbow Lounge bouncer Justin McCarty said in the CBS 11 News story. “I’ve never seen anything this aggressive.”

The owner of the Rainbow Lounge could not be immediately reached for comment.

The Dallas Morning News reported that several dozen people gathered outside the Tarrant County, Texas, courthouse Sunday afternoon to protest the arrests made at the Rainbow Lounge.

The paper reported that protesters called for an investigation into allegations that officers used excessive force while arresting the patrons. Witnesses also claimed that one patron was hospitalized after hitting his head at the time of his arrest, the paper reported.

“It was incredibly excessive and brutal,” bar patron and witness Todd Camp told the Morning News.

The Texas liquor law, which is posted on the web site of the state’s Alcoholic Beverage Commission, creates an offense of “public intoxication.”

The law says someone can be charged with this offense “if the person appears in a public place while intoxicated to the degree that the person may endanger the person or another.”

The law defines a public place as any public space as well as “licensed or permitted premises,” such as a bar.

Fort Worth City Council member Joel Burns told protesters he has requested that the police and liquor commission conduct an investigation into the conduct of the police officers and liquor agents on whether the Rainbow Lounge was singled out for harsher treatment than other establishments.

“A thorough internal investigation into the allegations made is being conducted as all allegations against officers are investigated,” the police statement says.

It notes police made nine additional arrests on public intoxication charges at other bars on the same night the officers arrested patrons at the Rainbow Lounge.

According to the statement released Sunday, liquor commission agents visited the Rainbow Lounge on June 25 to inform the club that they were in the process of visiting several bars in the area to conduct routine inspections “as a continuing effort to educate and enforce over-serving alcohol to intoxicated individuals.”

The statement says that on June 27, “a person identifying himself as the owner of the Rainbow Lounge” called the local police station to ask if there was a problem with his club. The statement says a police sergeant advised the owner that routine visits were being conducted to several bars over the next few days.

“The owner advised the sergeant officers that they were welcome anytime to conduct an inspection of his establishment,” the statement says. “The sergeant advised the owner of the Rainbow Lounge that officers would return to the area this evening to continue inspections and would inspect his establishment.”

The statement says that when the officers arrived about 12:30 a.m. Sunday to begin their inspection, “an extremely intoxicated patron made sexually explicit movements toward the police supervisor. This individual was arrested for public intoxication,” the statement says.

“Another intoxicated individual also made sexually explicit movements towards another officer and he was arrested for public intoxication,” the statement says. “A third individual inside the lounge assaulted the [Texas Alcoholic Beverage Commission] agent by grabbing the TABC agent’s groin,” the statement says. “He was escorted outside and arrested for public intoxication.”

It says a decision was made to release this person to “paramedics due to his extreme intoxicated state as he was repeatedly vomiting.”

Chad Cox, a bartender for another Fort Worth gay bar called Best Friends, said he was not aware of any complaints of police mistreatment of gay bar patrons in his club or in other gay establishments in Fort Worth.

He said he has worked as a bartender in mostly straight bars in Fort Worth over the past 20 years and has routinely observed public intoxication arrests.

“In Texas you can get a PI in a bar,” he said. “You can get a PI walking from a bar to your car. If the cops believe that you’re drunk, they can give it to you any time. That’s Texas.”

All I have to say is: ROUTINE MY ASS!
When did the police ever take a "paddy wagon" to any other routine instection? I'm sure this was some self-righteous religious zealot who wanted to make a statement! There are several members of the Ft Worth city council calling for an investigation, so I'm sure there will be more to come.

June 29, 2009

Book Stuff

I had a wonderful couple of hours looking at books on Saturday. I bought four but felt like I was limiting myself because I wanted to buy lots more.

I did write down every one's suggestions for books and as I thought, Half Price Books didn't have them all. I was very interested to read small excerpts from several of the suggested books because I was intrigued by their names. I gazed longingly at all the Stephen King novels and those by other authors I know; Anne Rice, Clive Barker and John Grisham. But this shopping trip was about new authors and new titles.

But I do want to read a review or an excerpt of what the book is about before I buy it. This got me thinking about the old adage of judging a book by its cover. There is also a few well known first lines from popular books that give you a feel for a theme of the book. So, I thought I'd list the first line from a few of my favorite books:

"The small boys came early to the hanging." Pillars of the Earth - Ken Follett

"Gwenda was eight years old, but she was not afraid of the dark." Worlds Without End - Ken Follett

"Renound curator Jacques Sauniere staggered through the vaulted archway of the museum's grand gallery." The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown

"For thirteen years, off and on, there has been war in Europe, but now, in 1805, there is an uneasy peace." War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy

"Some people called it "the time of undoing"; some, wishing to be more positive, spoke of it as "the replanting" or "the resotring" or even "the resurrection" of the Earth." Pastwatch - The Redemption of Christopher Columbus - Orson Scott Card

"When I left my office on that beautiful spring day, I had no idea what was in store for me." Where the Red Fern Grows - Wilson Rawls

June 28, 2009

Stonewall and Pride

I haven't talked much on my blog about Gay Pride month.
In Texas June is too hot for parades and parties in the park, at least not without a pool nearby! We celebrate our pride in September when the weather is better. Plus we would be competing with other large cities around the country for people to come to our Pride, or our residents going to other "cooler" cities to their pride festivities. Houston has a parade at night, I need to go some year and see it. But today marks the 40th anniversary of Stonewall, I can't let the day go without saying something!

My first pride celebration was big.
I finally came to terms with my sexuality in Utah in the early 80's and Utah would never had thrown me a party for it!! LOL!

Even after I moved to Las Vegas and Oklahoma City there were no parade of pride celebrations in those cities, too conservative. It was only in the larger cities on the coasts that would dare to hold such gatherings.

So when I moved to Baltimore in 1987 I finally got to participate in my first large pride event, the first March on Washington when the AIDS quilt was first displayed. I went with some friends and I ended up carrying a banner introducing the mid-Atlantic states. I then realized what it means to be proud of who I am. I'm a gay man living in a free country fighting for equal rights for all Americans.

For the few straight readers I have I found this interesting article about Stonewall that gives a lot of the details:
Ever wondered why so many queens are Judy Garland fans? She suffered, she got back up when she was down, she was precociously, ludicrously talented, she liked getting smashed, she starred in the campest film on earth, and, oh yes, she played a formative role in the birth of the modern gay rights movement.

Dateline: June 1969
On Sunday 22 June 1969, Garland was found dead from an overdose in her London home. On Friday 27 June she was buried and a wake was held by her gay fans at the Stonewall Inn in New York. In the early hours of 28 June the police decided to raid the Stonewall.

The Stonewall Inn was located at 53 Christopher Street. It was an after-hours members only club that sold booze without a licence. It was a real dump.

What happened?
Some sources say that as `Somewhere Over the Rainbow` played on the jukebox, eight plainclothes officers raided the Stonewall Inn, led by Deputy Inspector Seymour Pine. Customers were allowed to leave whilst the owners were arrested. The mood was light, but then it changed when a police wagon appeared and some drag queens and a lesbian were forced into it. The crowd started to get angry, they started attacking the police, who retreated to the bar and locked themselves inside. People started to throw bricks through the windows, more police arrived, some started waving guns, and the disturbance grew into a full-scale riot.

As far as the punters were concerned, the raid was the latest example of police harassment of minority groups. Numerous gay bars had been closed down, people were running out of places to go and they just couldn`t take it anymore. Everyone was sick of being criminalized by a brutal and unsympathetic police force. And then Judy died. People just couldn`t take any more!

The aftermath
Not everyone agreed that what happened at Stonewall was a riot. The New York press downplayed the events, calling it a "rampage." The whole thing took about 45 minutes, according to witnesses. But later that Saturday, in the evening, more people converged at the Stonewall Inn. They closed off the street, chanted slogans and fought back against the police. More disturbances took place over the next few nights, after which people decided to become more organised and develop their own political groups. In late July the Gay Liberation Front was formed and the rest, as they say, is history. Judy would have been proud.

June 27, 2009

This being human

Here is an interesting poem from the Sufi poet Rumi, a 13th century poet from Persia.

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they're a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of it's furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

There is a lot of wisdom in this; a lot I can learn from. This is about accepting life as it and whatever comes to us.

June 26, 2009

Deep random thoughts

With the passing of two very public figures it makes us all think of our own mortality.

What makes a good life? I believe that a good life is a life of few hopes and expectations. In times of darkness, living with less expectations can really help us "hang in there"; when we don't demand and expect things to become better according to some preconceived notion. Then if things do become better we receive them with an open mind that doesn't clutch at them with dependency.

The Dalai Lama says: "Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time."

All of us are dying all the time, so if you are not fully living, you'd better start.

I love to live with passion and I hope that is what people will remember about me!

June 25, 2009

Book suggestions wanted!

I'm on page 914 and have almost exactly 100 pages to go! Woohoo!

I have loved this book! I'm not sure if it's considered a sequel to Pillars of the Earth by Ken Follett. It is the same village in 14th century England as the first book, only 200 years later and these are the descendants of the original characters. I know I'll finish it before the weekend.

Now my dilemma... what to read next? This is why I'm posting this today. I'd like some suggestions for a good read. And I will read one of the books that someone suggests.

Fictional history is my favorite genre, but I find that I can't read too many books in a row that are too similar. Some of my favorite authors are: John Grisham, Nelson DeMille, James Michener, Anne Rice, Dan Brown, Stephen King, Pearl Buck and James Patterson.

Dallas has a great chain store called Half Price Books. You can turn in your old books for a small discount and then get used hardcover books for a fraction of the cost of some other major chains! I prefer hardcover to paperbacks any day!! I'll be headed to a store this weekend and I know I'll be there for hours like I always am! And I usually leave with a stack of good books to read.

Please leave me a comment with a few favorite books. I want to be well armed when I hit Half Price Books!


June 24, 2009

Random Question Wednesday

Complete the sentence: I would have more peace of mind if____________.
Let me see, should I compile a list?
-If I got out of debt
-If I got a better job
-If I got a boyfriend/partner
-If.. if... if...

No, I'm a realist. I know if all those things happened I would still worry about something! I inherited the worry gene from my mother. I can wake up in the middle of the night and my mind won't turn off! I try to solve the world's problems! I relive all my past mistakes, no matter how small. Then I worry about things that might happen. That's why I'm taking my time reading the book I mention a lot, and the one listed in the sidebar called "The Way Of The Small" by Michael Gellert.

I also don't want to live thinking "I'll be happy if 'this' happens", whatever 'this' is; a new job, new spouse, etc. Too often we live only to reach a certain goal and then once we reach it we need to find something else that we can reach to make us happy.

So the answer is: I would have more peace of mind if I live in the moment and enjoy what I have right now.

June 23, 2009

Tarot Card reading

I'm a little stumped on what to write. Hey I know, I'll let someone help me out.
A friend sent me this link:

Find out what Tarot card you draw, and see what the future holds for you.

As I write this I'm toggeling over to the other tab and writing the questions and my answers on here. Let's see how this turns out together:

1. Choose a feeling that is close to how you feel right now...









2. You are...








slowly making it

3. You want to...

fix a problem

hear good news

be kissed

change things


start something new*


make a decision

4. If you had one wish, you would wish for....
unlimited luck

A new start or life

A perfect world

True love*





all lifes knowledge

5. Your childhood was...
long and drawn out


spent learning rather then playing


full of pain

almost perfect*



6. When I die I hope to...
die alone

be satisfied

have found true love

die before my loved one's

have been successfull

be remembered

have lived with passion*

have led a eventfull life

have had many adventures

7. I fear...
the unknown






bad news


being trapped

I'm clicking "SUBMIT" now....

The Devil

Your Tarot reading drew the Devil card which foretell's a series of unexpected events. A sudden change in your life is comming, and the ending of a freindship is near. Loss of money during this time is possible and the disruption from these event's will play havack on your life. But do not fear, in time these event's will pass, and you will adapt to the new change's in your life. Patience and a calm attitude will help with the transfer into these new change's.

Um, I don't know what to say! Well, what do y'all think?

June 22, 2009

Wedding weekend!

If someone had walked past me on Friday night they would have overheard this conversation with my friends:

Friend: "What are you doing this weekend Jim?"
Jim: "I'm going to the hill country for a wedding. Well, I'm officiating at the wedding."
Friend: "WHAT? No way! Really?"
Jim: "Yea, I'm an ordained minister."
Friend: "You're kidding me!"
Jim: "No, I went on-line and became a minister, it's not a Christian church, it's Universal for all religions."
Friend: "WOW, we never knew"
Jim: "Oh, and it's a toga themed wedding!"
Friend: "WTF? Are you serious? LOL"
Jim: "Yes, totally serious! These friends are crazy like me."

I had a great time! Nervous during the ceremony, but they wanted it short and sweet; no "vows" or nothing mushy.

I then changed into my toga for the reception/party.

We ate, sang karaoke and had a few drinks.

And ended up back in the pool!
The only way to deal with the upper 90 degree weather in Texas to to stay in or near water!

This was me from earlier in the day, too dark to take pictures later in the night!

We did bring in the Summer Solstice in a very traditional Pagan way! heehee!

I love my friends!

June 21, 2009

Summer Solstice

Sol + stice derives from a combination of Latin words meaning "sun" + "to stand still." As the days lengthen, the sun rises higher and higher until it seems to stand still in the sky.

As a major celestial event, the Summer Solstice results in the longest day and the shortest night of the year. The Northern Hemisphere celebrates in June, but the people on the Southern half of the earth have their longest summer day in December.
Early Celebrations

Awed by the great power of the sun, civilizations in the northern areas have for centuries celebrated the first day of summer otherwise known as the Summer Solstice, Midsummer (see Shakespeare), St. John's Day, or the Wiccan Litha.

The Celts & Slavs celebrated the first day of summer with dancing & bonfires to help increase the sun's energy. The Chinese marked the day by honoring Li, the Chinese Goddess of Light.

Perhaps the most enduring modern ties with Summer Solstice were the Druids' celebration of the day as the "wedding of Heaven and Earth", resulting in the present day belief of a "lucky" wedding in June.

Today, the day is still celebrated around the world - most notably in England at Stonehenge and Avebury, where thousands gather to welcome the sunrise on the Summer Solstice.

Pagan spirit gatherings or festivals are also common in June, when groups assemble to light a sacred fire, and stay up all night to welcome the dawn.

This is very fitting seeing that I officiated at my friends wedding yesterday! More stories and pictures to come in the next few days.

Also, Happy Father's Day to my friends who are fathers!

June 20, 2009


...I sing loudly to my favorite CD while driving.

...I think my OCD is way out of control.

...I really hate getting older.

...A song can bring me to tears.

...I wish I had a fuck-buddy.

...I turn the music up at home and dance alone.

...I think I'd like would like to try out for a reality TV show.

...I know I look and act very dorky.

...Seeing a cat makes me want to have a pet in spite of my allergies.

...I don't mean to, but I find I interrupt people who I think are taking to long to make their point.

...The wrong thing come out of my mouth at the wrong time!

Most of the time.... I'm happy!

(idea stolen borrowed from Dr Spo)

June 19, 2009

Happy Juneteenth!

Juneteenth is the oldest nationally celebrated commemoration of the ending of slavery in the United States.

From its Galveston, Texas origin in 1865, the observance of June 19th as the African American Emancipation Day has spread across the United States and beyond.

Today Juneteenth commemorates African American freedom and emphasizes education and achievement. It is a day, a week, and in some areas a month marked with celebrations, guest speakers, picnics and family gatherings. It is a time for reflection and rejoicing. It is a time for assessment, self-improvement and for planning the future. Its growing popularity signifies a level of maturity and dignity in America long over due. In cities across the country, people of all races, nationalities and religions are joining hands to truthfully acknowledge a period in our history that shaped and continues to influence our society today. Sensitized to the conditions and experiences of others, only then can we make significant and lasting improvements in our society.

June 18, 2009

Finally... the weekend update - renaissance faire style

I spent the weekend in Colorado at the opening of their Renaissance Festival.

It was so great to see my friends again!

And it was wonderful to be in the cool mountains in the pines!

Of course there was a lot of rum and beer consumed!

These friends go all out on their costumes!

I love my friends!

I got a little drunk... well, let's just say that I don't remember this picture being taken! And you'd think I would remember being spanked by a jester!! LOL

I even got so drunk I did this.....

Oh my!

June 17, 2009

Random Question Wednesday

What would you like to sell on a TV commercial?

I would sell my diet and fitness book. I think I mentioned before that in June 2000 I went on a major diet and exercise plan. I read the Fitness For Life book and took what worked for me; a strict diet and exercise plan for 6 days of the week. I 1 took day off from the diet and the gym.

Along the way from 225 lbs to 175 I learned a few things.
  • One must keep at it! One does not gain weight over a few weeks so why do we expect to take it off that fast?
  • Also, one must be consistent. 6 days a week for as long as it takes you to get to your goal weight, not just 4 days a week or every other day.
  • Another one; eat better, which means more fruits and vegetables.And no soda, not even diet sodas. Water!
  • Even when you're not at the gym you need to get us and move. If there are stairs available to take instead of an elevator, take the stairs! If there isn't someone standing on an escalator blocking you, walk up the escalator stairs! Or instead of driving around a parking lot looking for an open spot near the door park way out in the lot and walk a few extra steps. Every little bit helps.

Well, buy my book if you want to know more! LOL

When I was at the gym tonight the scales were truthful... and it hurt! I'm weighing in just under 190lbs. I know I was focused on other things the last couple of months, but I'm starting back on the strict diet tomorrow!

June 16, 2009

Two years ago today...

On June 16, 2007 I walked into Catt Tattoo in Addison, Texas with this picture and said: "OK, let's do it!"

Darren said "give me a few minutes to draw this and then tell me what you think." I sat down and started texting my friends; "OMG, I'm waiting to get a tattoo!" The drawing was perfect, exactly what I wanted. The tattoo artist Darren also caught my vision with the shading.

How do I feel about it two years later? I love it!

I had been thinking about getting one for years! Finally I decided on a Celtic Knot. I have some Celtic blood and its part of my renaissance costume, but this had to have meaning and be unique. I finally found the picture and I realized it was full of symbolism.

I believe there were 3 different parts to life. There has to be a balance in all, all parts have to work together to make the picture. For me they are my health, my work and my love/social life. I know I have to not only work on my physical health, but also my spiritual and mental. There is also the connection of God, myself and others. And then the relationship with me and my parents. There are many aspects of life that are woven together to make a perfect picture and this knot represented all of this.

I really do love it! The next one I get (my 3rd one) has to have a meaning as this one does. Maybe a Kiwi (the bird not the fruit, LOL) over my heart? (It would symbolize that I'm a Kiwi at heart; New Zealand is where I served my mormon mission) Maybe another Celtic Knot arm band...?? Maybe some Indian pictograph for my Utah heritage.... I've got to be sure its something I will love.

June 15, 2009


Even Disney is gettin down now!

June 14, 2009

Interesting fact about Dallas

Here is some little known information about Dallas. This is the history on "La RĂ©union":

La RĂ©union was a socialist utopian community formed in 1855 by French, Belgian, and Swiss colonists approximately three miles west of Reunion Tower (the building that looks like a Q-Tip) in downtown Dallas and near the forks of the Trinity River. The founders were inspired by the utopian thought of the French philosopher Francois Marie Charles Fourier.

La Reunion intended to become a socialist Utopian commune for production and distribution for communal profit. Unlike other communist systems, both men and women could vote and individuals could own private property.

La Reunion was founded in 1855 by Victor Considerant. La Reunion's ranks included tailors, shoemakers, milliners, jewelers, watchmakers, weavers, vintners, brew masters, and storekeepers. The colony even included naturalists, philosophers, musicians, dance masters, and poets. There were chefs, butchers, candle and soap makers, but no farmers and stockmen. Nor did they have strong leadership - Considerant was much more a social experimenter than a taskmaster, administrator, or leader of men. Unfortunately the watchmaking, weaving, brewing and storekeeping qualifications of the new colonists were ill-suited to the establishment of a colony, because they lacked the ability to provide food for themselves.

Although the colonists did manage to grow wheat and vegetables the amount produced was not sufficient, although their biggest handicap was the uncooperative weather of Texas. La Reunion ultimately did not survive. Although some of the settlers returned to Europe many moved into Dallas and created a rich source of skilled artisans and craftsmen during Dallas' formative years.

I live in this area of the city! It's called Oak Cliff now.

June 13, 2009

A lesson on genealogy

A friend sent this to me and I knew I had to share it.

June 12, 2009

My 200th post

WOW! I have reached 200 posts! Hard to imagine this from when I started this back in November. Here was my very first post; Nov. 16, 2008.

I like doing a blog, it's an online journal of sorts. A way to write about what happens to me. I wish I could go someplace and read about my parents or other family members to see what their lives were like or what they were feeling. If they kept a journal or diary you have to have the physical book or you would never read it. So I like the idea and concept of this online journal.

I have gone back and read entries from my missionary journal and I'm not going to do the same thing here. It seemed like I was giving a play-by-play or travel log of my day. With this blog I hope to just write about the stuff from my life, what I'm feeling, thinking about, what's in the news or media now, sometimes just silly stuff that makes me laugh. That's why I'm calling this blog "Jim's Stuff" it's just stories and things from my life.

One thing I didn't expect was the number of new people I have gotten to know. I would love to meet everyone in person someday! Thanks for stopping by my little corner of the world wide web. And thank you for leaving comments!

June 11, 2009

Random thoughts

There is a lot going on this week and this weekend.

The job: We're moving to a new work area and I officially start in my new position next week. Been in a lot of training and refresher courses this week. Lots of meetings too with the rest of the staff and managers. I'm taking Friday off, that means things have to be finished before I leave on Thursday night so when I get back next Wednesday I can jump right into work with no delays.

Prep for the weekend Day: On Friday I hopefully will go to the court and get the speeding ticket dismissed. I took the defensive driving course this week too and I am waiting on my driving record to come in (crossing my fingers that it comes in the mail today or tomorrow), I really would like to get the matter resolved and done! Then finish packing.

Saturday morning I'm flying to Denver to spend a long weekend with friends. People will be coming in from all over colorful Colorado, Salt Lake City and Phoenix. It's the opening weekend for their Renaissance Faire. Yes, I am "ren geek" but this is more about seeing friends again. And drinking a lot of rum.

Back to reality:
Monday night I come back home. Just in time to do laundry and start preparing for next weekend. I'll be headed to the Texas Hill country to marry my friends. I better start thinking about writing what I'm going to say. When I became an online minister I never thought I would actually do anything with it! But I love these friends and I'd do anything for them.

Daily Blog:
I need to have some blogs already set up to post, it was a New Years resolution to write everyday!

It will be a busy end of the week and weekend! But I'm sure it will be great!

June 10, 2009

Random Question Wednesday

If you were a teacher, what subject would you like to teach?

Easy question! If anyone read my post from the other day about Google Earth they would figure it out. I would love to teach geography to elementary school age kids! Especially with a great tool like Google Earth!

The reason I would love to teach this is because I would want to give kids a better understanding of the world. Sometimes I think we Americans have such a limited view of the world, we only know what is around us. I would like to try to broaden a child's mind, let them know that just because we do things a certain way in our country it does not make it better than someone else, just different. And the worlds is full of diversity.

I have heard stories and news reports that kids don't even know their country very well. They have no idea New Mexico is a state or that Alaska is twice the size of Texas. There are even vast differences of life experiences of people living in this country. When I lived in Baltimore I was seeing a guy who grew up in Brooklyn. It was so interesting hearing about his childhood which was so different from mine, me being raised in rural Utah in the dessert next to the mountains.

I think it would be nice to inspire someone to travel more, go see other countries and experience a different culture, other than the one they were born into.

June 9, 2009

Flirting? What's that...?

I went out on Friday and Saturday night, something I haven't done in a long time since I sequestered myself to study. It was good to visit and catch up with friends. I even danced a two-stepped a few times. But maybe I'm just way out of habit or something, but I painfully realized that I'm not very good at flirting. Well, I could even say that I don't know how to flirt.

I saw a couple of guys that I found handsome, but had no nerve to go talk to them. And maybe my straight forward attitude of just saying "hello, how are you?" is not what people are expecting. Or is it my expectation that I think they expect some witty line from me? I also seem to have a "no tolerance for bullshit" mind-set that doesn't help. And I don't play games! The last guy I dated wouldn't come to my place, it was "too far" but he asked 'why didn't I go up to his place?' Jimmy don't play that game!

And I don't feel comfortable going up to a guy in a group of friends. It's interesting to see how someone acts with their friends, but I really don't want to interrupt a conversation.

And then I don't want to meet some guy and then ask him out only to hear " I don't think that my boyfriend/husband would like that." Gay men seem to wear a lot of jewelry and one can never really tell if someone is taken, there could or could not be a wedding/committment ring! I'm so cornfused!

Any help or suggestions would be appreciated!

June 8, 2009

Literal videos

Which one is better?

June 7, 2009

Just some things on my mind today

There used to be an old Mormon movie called "Man's Search for Happiness". It begins with this; "Sometimes in your search for happiness, you ponder the meaning of your life. You sift your memory for beginnings, you send your mind ahead for directions, but all you really know is “now.” And you are lost in the present."

Why do they think that "now" such a bad place to be? Why be 'lost in the present'? This makes no sense to me, especially when I read the following chapter in the book "The Way Of The Small, Why Less Is More" by Michael Gellert.

"Many people today, particularly in America, suffer from what can be called a happiness complex.

The happiness complex is fundamentally an illusion. The illusion is not the belief that one is happy when she is not, although some people will go to great lengths to convince themselves and others that they are happy when they are not. The illusion is rather in the beliefs of what happiness is. Many people today assume that happiness implies the absence of suffering and struggle, as if a life of meaning, service to others, or tormented but creative accomplishment is not a happy life. Another misconception is that happiness must be sought and acquired, as if it were something special and that is apart from ordinary, everyday life. It must be attained by fulfilling some requirement - perhaps making more money or finding a new spouse - or by following some prescribed method or program of self-improvement. But happiness is
right before our eyes, immediately available to us if we surrender to what this very moment offers, to what fate has put on our table right now. The happiness complex consists of the hope that happiness will come if only...."

This is powerful! It makes one stop and think about what they want in life. The pursuit of happiness is in the Constitution isn't it? But why just pursue it when it is right in front of us, if we can just let go of some of those misconceptions.

I guess what makes me think of this, is a conversation with a friend last night who happened to comment that I seemed happy, what was I doing different? I replied, "I'm just enjoying the moment!"

June 6, 2009

See why I'm gay....

I think all women are born this way!
love ya, really!

June 5, 2009

Another Exam today :-/

I'm taking my last exam, the Series 63 this morning.

I'll post an update later on how I did!


I'm done! Fully licensed!!! Woohoo!

June 4, 2009

Dreaming on a World

I like these words from a song by Tracy Chapman:

I know I may be wishing
On a world
That may never be
But I'll keep on wishing
No matter how hopeless
Or foolish
It may seem
I’ll keep on wishing

I’ll toss my coins in the fountain
Look for clovers in grassy lawns
Search for shooting stars in the night
Cross my fingers and dream on

I know I may be dreaming
Of a world
Far from present day reality
But I’ll keep on dreaming

No matter how unrealistic
Or naive
It may seem always keep dreaming

And toss your coins in the fountain
Look for clovers in grassy lawns
Search for shooting stars in the night
Cross your fingers and dream on

We must always be thinking
Of a world
As a place of infinite possibilities
And always keep thinking

No matter how hopeless
Or foolish
It may seem
Always keep thinking

And toss our coins in the fountain
Look for clovers in grassy lawns
Search for shooting stars in the night
Cross our fingers and dream on

I’ll keep on wishing
We must always keep dreaming
Of a world
With equality and justice

There could be a world
Without poverty and sickness

Of a world
Without hunger and homelessness

Of a world
Where all people live in peace

Of a world
On a world

Kind of fitting for today, with another state giving us marriage rights!

June 3, 2009

Random Question Wednesday

Complete the sentence: Something I hope will happen in the future is ___________.

First thing that pops into my head is the hope for a husbear husband! But since no eligible men are knocking at my door, I don't see me running off to Iowa to get married to Mr Right anytime soon. I don't even have Mr Right Now knocking on my door. Any man would do... except for Mr Always Right. That would just be annoying!

Anyhoo... I hope that more states allow gay marriage! That a message is sent to all Americans that we deserve the same rights as anyone else, that we are not second class citizens, that I won't have to travel to another state to get married and that my marriage would be recognized by all.

June 2, 2009

Google Earth

I have always loved geography! Even as a kid this was my favorite subject in school. A few years ago someone gave me a large color atlas and I would spend hours pouring over it. Now I have a new way to fill this love of the world.

I first saw Google Earth on brother #2's computer years ago. Just a few months ago I finally downloaded it myself. I love Google Earth. I love to go virtual sightseeing!

It is an amazing thing! I have looked at the house I grew up in. I have looked at the places I lived in New Zealand while I was a missionary there over 25 years ago.

A few weeks ago I looked at islands; I have looked at Ibiza in the Mediterranean. I took a tour around Iceland, saw where Reykjavik is on the island. I found Easter Island, you can zoom in close enough to see the giant statues! I also looked at the Marshall Islands and saw the bunker built to contain the radioactive debris from all the neculear test done there in the 1940s.

Another weekend I looked at Timbuktu and the small city-states and countries in Europe. You can get close up views of cities in central China that have larger populations than most American cities, but ones we never hear about!

This feeds my need to see other lands and to try to understand how other people live. See what their lives are like.

Does anyone else go virtual sight-seeing like me?

June 1, 2009

Weekend in review

Not much happened this weekend. At 8 PM on Friday my body said "Stop". I was alseep before my head hit the pillow. I wanted to go out... but sometimes the old body just says otherwise.

Saturday I got a lot of chores done. Laundry had been piling up and the sink cleaned out. I also saw Angels and Demons and loved it! It stayed very true to the book and I'm glad. i think people would not have liked it if Ron Howard had taken some liberty with the script. I'll have to get the book out and reread it again. I studied for a while in the evening and then read some blogs. Didn't feel like going out.

Sunday I read Post Secret while having coffee. I studied a while, I have a smaller exam of just 50 questions this Friday (the Series 63). I made it to the gym and was heading out to see the X-Men, Wolverine movie when my friend called to remind me that we had a HOA board meeting. Ugh! I would rather be watching a movie! The board meeting ran late and I got home just in time to put clean sheets on the bed and crawl in. YAWN!

The yawn is for the boring weekend and the fact that I sure was tired for not doing very much!