I think I've mentioned that I have my life story, (well, the part about growing up Mormon), out on the website Gay Mormon Stories. I included my email address at the end of the story and occasionally I get an email from someone in the world who has read my story and wants me to know that my story helped them.
I got an email this week, but it had a different tone to it:
(I'll edit it...)
I enjoyed your story but I was frustrated at your conclusions. I experienced much of the same as you... the difference is that I did believe that if I wanted it bad enough and if I exercised my faith that I could learn to control and deal with my homosexual attractions.
I met a wonderful girl when I was seventeen but I first fell in love with her younger 14 year old brother. I never did anything sexual with him but always wanted to. Years later after serving a mission I ended up marring the girl and we now have 7 children, three married and three grand children.
...I just chose to fight against what I believe is a trial in my life that god allowed me to have, he could help me overcome this thorn in my flesh.
I am not writing this to you to preach to you or to try and win you back. [blah blah blah]
...I do appreciate your story and I don't mean to make judgment on you. [blah blah blah]
...Sorry this is so long. I wish you much happiness in your life. Thanks for taking the time to share your story.
Hhhhhmmm... I read this story early in the morning and was kind of sleepy. I first missed the parts that I put in bold above. Here is the edited version of my reply: (I know this may seem like a long post, but there is a hilarious end to the story, trust me!)
Just to let you know, I don't believe we have the same feelings. There are not just 3 types of people in the world; straight, gay and the bisexual who is exactly in the middle. There are way more shades of grey in between gay and straight than people in society want to admit. There are varying degrees, so you cannot judge that I am at the same place where you are!
...In my opinion, all organized religions, the LDS church included, believe that God's love IS conditional! You firmly believe that the ONLY way to ever be with God is to follow and live all the church teachings!
...don't belittle and berate YOURSELF because you're not 100% straight. Love this about yourself, your uniqueness! I believe it's not just a trial or a torn in your side, it's you. I hope you can love and enjoy your life right here and now, not just hope for happiness later.
OK, let's understand this guy. He knows he has "same sex attractions" before he is 18 yrs old. He falls in love with a guy who is now his brother-in-law!! And he doesn't want to preach, BUT...
Now, here is the funny part. As I'm clicking on the "Send" button I notice the email address; jizmebaby@[???].com
LOL!!! I think someone isn't being quite honest here...