I know I had a difficult time with self-esteem when I was growing up; my self-worth was extremely low. I was very self conscious and worried about what people thought of me. I got more confidence as I got older and a few years ago I had a breakthrough and finally felt great about myself! I really was happy in my own skin!
Well, as I approach the mid-century mark I'm starting to go backwards. I think I've identified what my issue is; I think I have this mental image of myself as a young 40 year old guy. And what I see in the mirror is something else.
I don't expect to see some old guy looking back at me.
I know everyone gets older. I know life is constantly changing. I know gravity takes over and things get saggy; and creaky; and wobbly and wrinkled! UGH!
People tell me that age is just a number. I know that I shouldn't compare myself to others, there always will be someone in better and in worse shape than me. Friends tell me I look great. They tell me that I'm very active and I don't look my age. But believing all that is easier said than done.
Maybe I'm just feeling fat and ugly because I'm getting over a sinus infection and haven't been to the gym in over a week!
Pity Party; table of one!
LOL
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Although my body is relatively slim, there are mornings where I can hardly recognize my haggard, worn-out 48-year-old face in the mirror.
And you know what? I don't care!! When I was 20 and gravely ill with cancer, no one (including my doctors) thought that I would live to see 21. Every birthday since then has been a miracle and a blessing.
So, Jim, please forget about the mirror and just hang onto your admirable self-confidence and high self-esteem. You've earned it!
based on recent evidence you sent me, you have nothing to worry about.
Hey! I've got a mirror just like that! lol
I try not to hang out in front of mirrors for too long.
Cheer up!
Your Friend, m.
Jimster, it's all relative and I like the sound of that. You are a great looking fellow, a bit quirky, but, who isn't? Now let's pay that check for the party of one and get on with it...
ain't nuthin but a number; I am 56 but feel 40 and act like a 20 year old sometimes. and FUCK THE WORLD what anyone thinks about me! I love me just as I am! "see you can't please everyone, so you gotta please yourself" (rick nelson, "garden party")
(it took 4 years of therapy to get me to this point)
have a good weekend, jim!
I'm with Anne Marie of Philly on this one Jimbo ( I KNEW I liked Anne Marie for some reason!) - I too grew up with low self-esteem thank to a constant belittling by my father. As I grew up and left home I came to the realization that I wasn't THAT bad. Now that I'm 69 going on 70 I realize that age really is nothing but a number. In my mind I am a vital, attractive and witting 37 years old and I don't give a FUCK what the mirror says or anybody else says. I really don't. Live it up Jim. We only get one go round.
Make that "witty" and "FLYING FUCK." Thank you.
When I was a young lad, many years ago, I was the chubby kid. It took me many years to get over looking in the mirror to not see that chubby kid and look at myself for who I really was in reality.
I'm almost 50 and I have reached that point in one's life where I just don't give a fuck what people think about me anymore. If you like me and find me sexy, interesting, etc., fine. If not, so what?
You're a handsome man and much like a fine wine, you're only getting better with age. So there. Now fly to Boston and do me. LOL
Dude, I'm so heavy right now that my clothes aren't fitting well. I hate it, but I have such low energy that I can't even muster forcing myself onto a good diet. :-(
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