I was recently told that my blog personality is different than the real me.
I know it is. What I write and share about myself online is only a small slice of my life. And it's only what I chose to share. People who read my blog think they may know me, but I admit, I am different in real life.
"How so?" I was asked. I really do try to be open and honest in my scribblings on my blog. I try to be careful with my words and not put something out there that really isn't me. I don't want to mis-represent myself either, so I've been giving this a lot of thought.
When I write my blog I usually put a lot of effort into an entry. I write, read, edit, re-read, edit again, then check punctuation and spelling. I proof-read again because sometimes my brain works faster then my fingers.
My real life isn't filtered in this way. It's Jim in real time.
I have a bit of a stutter if I'm nervous. I've been told I don't have a good poker face, people can immediately read my reaction to something. My body language is part of who I am in real life too, even a slight arch of my eyebrow shows what I'm really feeling without me even saying anything.
I know I am soft-spoken and on the quiet side when in a large group. I never want attention from too many people at once. But all of this doesn't come across in writings on this blog.
Many times I use the blog for getting ideas out that have been rumbling through my brain and would sound stupid if I tried to express it in words.
Both are me; these words are from me and the guy you meet in person is me too. These words my stay around longer than I will. Centuries from now will someone be reading this and try to understand who this man was? I presume they will; but so do I, I sometimes wonder who I am.
One thing for sure, both are also changing; evolving into, hopefully, a better person.
How do my blogger buddies feel about this? Have you thought about it and expressed it before? Write a blog entry or leave me a comment; "How are you different in person from your blog persona"?