There is a song that y'all know: Need You Now by Lady Antebellum. There is a line from the song that has been going through my mind quite a lot lately.
It goes like this: "I'd rather hurt then feel nothing at all".
I kinda like not feeling anything at the moment. Well, I feel the heat of the sun on my back and a slight breeze blowing by, but for the time being I'm OK with my heart not feeling anything. I'm not miserable but I don't want to go out and try either. I'm not anxious or eager to take a chance; for it's when we take chances that we open up our hearts for hurt too.
I do hope that at some point, someday, somewhere I'll feel something for someone. I hope that there is a someone that will feel something for me too... but I have to get my heart to feeling good about me.
So... for now I'm content.
I know things will change when the time is right.